Being a stay at home mother is so many different emotions all in one. My goal is too show the TRUTHS of parenting and all the feelings and emotions that come along with it !!I love my kids so damn much and I also love raising them, butttt I would probably also PAY to have a regular job right now. Am I wrong ? To most Karens.. yes.. “I should embrace this opportunity, I am so lucky, blah blah blah” I know all of that and I get it .. trust me. I’m here to be honest and to share my day to day experiences with all of you .. in Hopes that atleast one of you can relate and not feel so alone. Because this job is just that.. ISOLATION. I didn’t know about any of this when I left my job in order to raise our children and my boyfriend accepted his job offer, which meant LONG hours. Oh but I know now.. I cant tell you how many times I have called or texted him in tears saying I just can’t do it anymore. Its tiring, it’s draining, and it takes every ounce of human left inside of you some days. Some days I swear I would sleep in the woods.. just for some damn silence… but then when there actually is silence in our home.. it feels like something is off! I live for these days and the chaos of my kiddos! It is my life, all day every day, I choose my family FIRST.
… okay let me interrupt myself real quick… because none of this will be written in one sitting.. well I doubt it. So everytime you see these … I had to stop to tend to someone or something and I’m back LOL! It’s mom life for real over here. With that being said ..
Can I just tell you about my last 35 minutes .. OK .. so my 1 yr old (boy) is in this stage where he wants to say ow and cry all the time then do really dangerous things.. so he is doing that.. I’m trying to serve these kids dinner .. my 9 yr old is occupying him.. I serve dinner.. I turn the TV off.. “Dinner time! Get in your seats! ” My 3 year old decides to have a meltdown.. this is 2 minutes after he yells “ME!” When I ask who is eating (they all have a plate.. I dont know why I even ask that). Okay so he is pissed beyond belief.. so pissed he makes him self throw up.. (it has happened and if it hasnt happened to you, kudos!) So he throws up on the rug I just cleaned and floors also all of the clean blankets I just brought up from the laundry . Awesome! He also just had a bath. Anyways I put him back in the shower and go to clean up the throw up when I notice my 1 yr old throwing all of his food on the floor I just also cleaned! So I am picking that up as he is throwing more into my hair so I did not realize our dog is EATING THE PUKE! (There goes my friggin appetite) well the dog realizes he is nasty and proceeds to throw up. So now there is double throw up. Double. Dog, kid, dog and kid, kid and dog.. fuxk it.. it is just everywhere. This is my life, every day, all day.. mom life. BUT it is almost 7pm, which means dad will make his 45 minute trip home SOON!🙄Oh how I miss him when he is gone.
Raising the Gagains 